next to me.

This is just so lovely.


Huge sigh.

dust if you must

this.

"Meet a boy. Or a girl. Let them ask you on a date. Eat a meal, drink some wine. Tell them a few small things: the deets on your job, the name of your best friend. If you like them, let them walk you home. If you like them, hug them. Say yes when they ask if they can see you soon. Think of their hands til then. Their nose, their breath. Next time: ride some bikes; get ice cream cones. Walk in the park. Breathe in: the day, the trees, their words and their sweat. Lay in bed. If you like them touch their hand. If you like them, kiss them. Show them pics of the cat you had when you were a kid. Read them a page out loud from your all-time fave book. Tell them your fave dumb joke, let them see you laugh hard. If you still like them, take them to meet your mom, your dad. Your friends. Take them to the home you grew up in. Drive down a long road in the night. Play rock and roll, let them hear you sing. If you still like them, show them your heart. If you still like them, trust you are safe. Tell them what brings you joy, and pain. Tell them about your friends and fam who've died. Trust they will hear you. Trust they won't hurt you. This is a big part of deal: the light and the dark. Tell them "I love you". Let them help you heal. Make a choice, then take the next step. Say "bye" to your old life. Brunch with a book, a home of just your stuff. Choose a gem. Wash your face, wear a rose in your hair. Wear a white dress. Pick a date, storm or sun. Build a shrine to say "I do" next to, in front of friends and fam. Make a home. Make a fire. Buy their soap, brush your teeth side by side. Run them a warm salt bath. Watch them sleep. Make your bed. Make a child. Have faith, what you have is pure. No one can take it from you. Watch the days of your life fade and bloom. Thank the moon, the air, the sun. Be peace and faith; not fear and fight. Don't be scared. Where it is dark there are stars." 

righteous.

thinking about something new. that's all.